"i'll like a drop of rainwater refracting light...
and a dash of illumination across the endless dark too."

Thursday, March 27, 2008

hehehe. back again. recently felt quite free-spirited in some sense :D picked up some really precious lessons in life and grew some wisdom? lol. i guess its just about getting some light and better insights into some stuff in my life ba... hmm hmm. like this feeling of shoving interesting experiences into my very own life's treasure-box along with some discoveries, memories and adrenaline rushes.

i think strength really comes from having courage to take the first step and then accepting with grace what comes after and never running away. patience is of utmost importance... really must be generous with giving ourselves time to understand and never rush. many a times its really boiling down to how we look at some stuff in life - our own perspectives are what that are influencing us. spending some quiet moments alone reflecting and thinking really helped. of course not to mention the time spent with meow, one of my two bestest buds in my life is just plain thankful for.
i guess its really really not high chance to find another whom you know truly understand what you are thinking about, cares for, feels for and thinks so much the same as. its kinda scary to like have someone knowing me so well, second to myself and my mom? haha. yet the feeling is indescribable... its like you know she'll always be there for you and like you just know deep down the friendship shared is the strongest among the rest and can really stand the test of time. you can't really explain but you just know kind of thing... i guess must experience yourself then will know de ba.. some stuff. hahz. its fortunate enough to have one but to have two is just plain lucky. my 2 best friends in life are really amazing wonders. thankful. gen & meow.

its like when you hear updates from them on similar things that happened to other friends, you'll naturally want and really wish to know more and feels so much more for their happenings. when you are updating them about recent happenings, you'll fill them in with much more details as well... special privileges like that. hahz... its just different as when you are sharing with others... dunno how to say.
... currently feeling the stress mounting up to exams (inevitable as usual) but nevertheless looking forward to the holidays and since exams happened to come before that... so i guess no choice, gotta get "pass" them first... :(

hmmm hmm. hehehe but really feel very free-spirited at the moment. this feeling rocks.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

got this from a email forwarded by a friend.

when the world pushes you to your knees, you're in the perfect position to pray

being happy doesn't mean that everything is prefect. it just mean that you've decided to see beyond the imperfections.

touched me somehow.

Monday, March 10, 2008

just me and the sea, perhaps my book and pencil pls?

time when i wanna be alone, looking at the endless sea, not needing to care if the world still spins as long as mine pause for me.
time when i wanna be washed by the gentle rain, to walk and feel that life is not a rush.
to simply pause and enjoy the beautiful things around and not dash past each day without seeing the meaning and wonder.
but seems like now i can't. time seems to be never enough. i wonder why.
i need some time and space alone. just me and the sea, perhaps my book and pencil but time seems to be never enough. i wonder why.
is a busy hectic life necessary fulfilling? am i getting what i think i want? do i see in myself what i think i see? time to do some reflective re-evaluation in life. in my life.

Saturday, March 8, 2008

one. life is simply so err... exciting and full of amazing happenings. in short, its just not too far from what we read or see in movies' and stories' plots basically... at least it appears so for me. hmmm... so fun and sometimes, really quite funny. interesting and a lot of things can really happen within a short period of time. :) re-affirmed that seriously. hehe

two. it is really possible that we can stun ourselves. i used to so doubt that saying lah... now gotta eat my own words. but i also must pat myself on the head (and maybe shoulder too) for whatever i did... just this week already got 2 things that can make me raise my own eyebrows very high at myself le. wahaha. a secret between me, myself and i. :D however, still must remind myself not to drink coffee too often in the wee hours... its always the case when adrenaline is too high and we are not getting enough sleep to think clearly... but in any case, i was quite glad i did them no matter what. hahz. then again i guess the constant happening of too much exciting stuffs is not exactly under one of the causes of heart attack... so should be fine. start believing in what you can't believe.

three. there are some games that kids like me really shouldn't start playing or join in yet... simply cos childish people just love the easy and less complicated way out. and i miss the "play like no one else is watching you" kind of feeling so much, too much to start. but then again life is just unpredictable so for now shall just keep this at that and see what other exciting things life has in store for me... better concentrate on the game of life literally.

cool cool week. exciting and errs... somewhat fun. hahz. truly free-spirited for now. and, love this.