"i'll like a drop of rainwater refracting light...
and a dash of illumination across the endless dark too."

Saturday, January 27, 2007


people who are always trying to impress others with only the interesting sides of the their lives usually fail to realise that any envy others hold may only be for that moment and that being impressive or envied by might not actually garner them true happiness. i would rather enjoy living a life my own way even if it may seem simple and unthrilling to others. but if i am content with such it will suffice for being able to feel content is happiness truly.

perhaps as an only child i was never really appreciative of and really affected by others' views and comments unless that person is someone whom i hold dear or is really wise in my eyes. i never thought of living my life the way others deem dazzlingly. i don't think an affirmation is the right benchmark unless it comes from myself. maybe when one goes with the flow, what he/she is looking for is the genuinely comfortable right way out for them.

and maybe what i said i say so because i have a comfort zone which i can quite warmly comes back to for support when what i am doing is not being appreciated or understood by others. maybe i am "others " to other people as they are to me. maybe these might not make sense. but it does to me so i am satisfied. haha.


Wednesday, January 10, 2007

currently slumbering in a period of deep thoughts... particularly when there are some choices for me to make and lots of other things to consider... there are times when we feel tiny and unimportant in this vast universe ... like if one day, when we disappear suddenly, it won't really affect the universe. yet it seems like if any of our love ones leaves us, our world will come crashing down. maybe the universe is large because its a summation of all of our worlds.