"i'll like a drop of rainwater refracting light...
and a dash of illumination across the endless dark too."

Friday, September 7, 2007

lots of happenings and thoughts throughout these weeks. at times feel like writing them here but just can't seem to find the time to :( its a bliss to be busy and fill your life with stuff to the neck... but it is really tiring at time... its only when you walked to the end of your life and then look back that you probably will be glad to have something to look back to, to remember and to think about... i guess?

how do one age gracefully? how does one know if he or she has enough memories to keep them company when they are old? can one live on memories alone? ever watched a show where a man met with an accident that damaged his brain and he was only able to retain his memory for a day i.e. he will forget whatever that has happened the day before when he wakes up each morning... so he managed to do a lot of bad things because he can "remind" or fake memories basically lie to himself and forget that fact.

then in 50 first dates, where the same situation happened to the girl but at least hers was a happy ending. though if this was really the case, does anything matter? as in everything won't be important if we will forget it eventually... what if i forget the people whom i don't want to forget? what if i forget every beautiful, the happy memories in my whole life one day all of a sudden? what will happen when i am old?

its sad to realise a change in attitude and and sadder when you know there's nothing you can do to make lives for your loved ones better. helpless but true.... i wish...

maybe letting go is a release when all the memories left behind are still beautiful - but how can one ever bear to?