"i'll like a drop of rainwater refracting light...
and a dash of illumination across the endless dark too."

Thursday, April 19, 2007

is what i want really what i want? how can anyone be sure of what they want is what they really really want until they get what they want? how do you know if what you want is what you think you want or that what you want is actually getting what you think you will get? is there a link between interest and talent? can you be good at something that you might not like or really like something that you might not do well in actually? argh... what do i want? do you know what you want? are you sure when you get what you want it is exactly what you want actually?

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

... came across this comic while browsing through the internet... looks interesting. the internet is probably one of the many things that before they came into existence, there wasn't really any actual need for them. but after they did you probably can't do without them.

ok. no link but i was also thinking about how people of extraordinary talent are usually peculiar in their character... but i believe this perception is largely shaped by some shows i've been watching since young.

always had the idea that extremely artistic people are usually quiet and has extreme - highly intensified feelings... like if one day you happened to bump into them while they are creating some art works and that your interruption had spoilt everything driven away their inspiration and mood you are probably going to get scowled at and stuff. but they will probably be a spontaneous and romantic bunch who lacks the ability to provide you with the sense of security.

then again my idea of someone gifted in science/research will probably let themselves in on their work so much that if one day you bump into them in th middle of their research, they probably won't even realise you are there... like totally absorbed in their work and ignores other things completely... then if you happen to meet them for dinner and stuff they will probably rattle on and on and on about their work-related stuff... imagine when you are eating a piece of steak and all they is that while you are eating your body is secreting this and that enzymes and the molecules found in a steak are..... haha - imagine that!

hmmm.... then what if someone artistic meets and fall in love with someone science-based... that'll be fun. haha. but that invoke some other idea on whether opposites do attract - is everyone is just looking for someone who are like them and hold similar perceptions so that they are understood by their other half or someone strikingly different so they are completed?

... but as everyone always say that there are no logical formulas/reasonings that you can apply to love so... yeah once again i am thinking too much... hehe :D

Saturday, April 14, 2007

goodness... i can't believe i am sooooo into the phantom of the opera that i have decided to watch it once more before it leaves singapore... on the 20th may... i guess it should be their last show. argh feeling terribly, horribly irrational and rash myself... especially when the ticket price are ex... maybe its been too long since some sensation like this manage to sweep me off feet... and oh well i was caught off guard... having weighed the cost of the ticket and the fact that the last time they were in singapore was like nearly 10 yrs ago... i finally decided to allow myself to be impulsive this time. haiz. oki at least i managed to get seats 8th row from the stage - consolling thought.

the last time i was in circle 3, level 4 and didn't manage to see the actors' and actresses' facial expressions that well. though i enjoyed myself tremendously nonetheless :) hopefully the people sitting beside me are less "conversational" than the last time so i can get absorbed by the musical totally this time. i felt so bad to ask them to lower their volume... but you know, i just don't want to get distracted... hehe :D oh well... i think its going to take quite a long while before this musical wears its excitement effects off me. its simply too amazing lah... crap... luckily at the present there are not much extremely important things that need my attention like studies and exams blah blah... hence i can indulge myself to this extravagance.

oh ya... i like the movie too!!! but the feeling is somehow different when you are there yourself and face to face with all the performers kinda thing. oh well hehe.

rite - must start saving up for future... k. after this i will. shall try real hard to restrain myself from watching another musical until i am able to control myself better of course. argh.... still wondering if i should get the movie vcd and programme book for the musical... argh - hui jun!!!

Sunday, April 8, 2007


Nighttime sharpens, heightens each sensation.
Darkness stirs and wakes imagination.
Silently the senses abandon their defences

Slowly, gently, night unfurls its splendour.
Grasp it, sense it tremulous and tender.
Turn your face away from the garish light of day,
Turn your thoughts away from cold, unfeeling light -
and listen to the music of the night...

Close your eyes and surrender to your darkest dreams!
Purge your thoughts of the life you knew before!
Close your eyes,let your spirit start to soar!
And you'll live as you've never lived before

Softly, deftly, music shall caress you
Hear it, feel it, secretly possess you
Open up your mind, let your fantasies unwind,
in this darkness that you know you cannot fight
the darkness of the music of the night.

Let your mind start a journey through a strange, new world!
Leave all thoughts of the life you knew before!
Let your soul take you where you long to be!
Only then can you belong to me

Floating, falling, sweet intoxication!
Touch me, trust me, savour each sensation!
Let the dream begin, let your darker side give in
To the power of the music that I write
The power of the music of the night

You alone can make my song take flight
Help me make the music of the night

the phantom of the opera. moving. grasping. enchanting. added to my wish-list ~ the chance to go london broadway to see this spectacular and magnificent performance which has been running for the 17th year now, the longest running musical.

went to see the musical alone last evening and was awed like i never did before. the feeling was beyond words. simply swept along and moved along. the idea of catching the musical by myself was the rightest decision i made.

i got all the time in the world to allow myself to be woven into the musical, ravel and reminisce... the undivided attention is something that will not happen if accompanied... i simply love this musical and the whole musical is simply unforgettable.

Thursday, April 5, 2007

... when what you want is not what you are made for and when dreams and reality are too far apart - which should you hold onto?
... had always loved the feeling of being one with nature... watching sunrise, sunset and simply listening to the sound of the waves hitting the shores...

and the chirping and twitterings in the woods...

this feeling is indescribable... as if you are the only one here at the particular moment in time and that you are actually being held and embraced by mother nature...

gazing into the starry skies when darkness falls... the silence and stillness of the night full of million little specks of stars staring back at me... often makes me feels like i'm just like one of the many specks of light... like how the stars appear to me in the whole big universe... and then i will hear the song somewhere out there... and wonders about the little prince and his planets...and then i would feel like i'm the only one in the univerese amongst the silence.

truly relaxing and a calm surrender for me in the rush of day... hope this special sense of serenity remains so special to me each time... :)

Wednesday, April 4, 2007

... does choices exist in a world of enchantment where happy endings exist? currently in a wondering mode... happened to realise that life is actually both short and long depending on how you see it, which made certain decisions seem harder... yet sometimes decisions do not always lead to conclusions.