helplessness.

your smile, your move, your every word,
unknowingly i let them seep in.
into my mind, where they imprint,
helplessly, so helplessly.

your stride, your laugh, your child-likeness,
carelessly i let them creep in.
into my heart, where they overwhelm,
helplessly, so helplessly.

so generous you are,
with your unfathomable silence.
your self-claimed simplicity, a complex mystery,
dying to be unravelled.

i wish i could find that little corner in your heart,
to know what you truly feel.
i wish i could dive deep within the depths of your soul,
to see if a piece of mine exists.

a trance-like dream, i wish never to be awakened.
each day of the following day never seemed this far away,
knowing there's a chance to look into your eyes,
to hear your voice, to see you smile, to be near you.

i felt this would be nice, for the rest of my life.

can't help feeling silly around you.
can do nothing about my embedded shyness,
can't help looking into your eyes,
the ones that have seen so much, so deep.

we were so close,
and you were this close.

so close, to taking my breath all away.