"i'll like a drop of rainwater refracting light...
and a dash of illumination across the endless dark too."

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

stop giving me THAT stare.
i mean it.
i want to see you and i don't want to see you.
its getting on my nerves.
my defences were never strong to begin with.
so i need you to stop it.
its too penetrating.
that reaches-into-the-depths-of-my-soul kind of stare.
the common problem with your species.
and the downfall of mine.
i don't even know anything about you.
its already electrifying enough when you are around.
and fishes can only take that much.
especially when they already find you impressive enough.
go get yourself a wedding or attachment ring and wear it or something.
you will get me into deep shit if this continues.
and it doesn't help, you being so secretive and all.
i thought i was the level 10000.
now i can't read you.
what is this crap.

although through this all you probably wouldn't know anything.
nothing.
but this fish here can still swim and hide somewhere -
the least they could do and the best they could manage.
you shall be non-existent from now on.
she will have to learn her control.

but what happens when there are just no place safe?
when you are just everywhere,
and that you shine even in that dim, quiet corner you'd always stay?

but its alright.
now i know.
you probably belong to Him.
not too surprising.
it's happened before.
i'd just have to get used to it.
and learn to close my eyes.
can't believe this.