poised between the high mountains and green pastures...

time does tell a lot of things... especially about people. in today's layered world, it seems rather hard to tell nice people apart from not-so-nice ones... especially when there are some rather good masqueraders. haiz. human relations can be such a wierd thing. someone may dislike another person yet both of them are seemingly nice to you. but still, a possible reason is probably you are either of no threat to either of them or that simply because there are no conflicts of interest between you and them.... which also mean to say if people were to face with choices, personal interest will still always come first.

ever thought of keeping things simple but it seems to be not as easy as its said. :(

...tend to admire humble people who are willing to share... those who are genuine in particular... they often give the feeling that they are truly knowledgeable and believe that what they know is limited even though in fact they are already know quite a lot as compared to others. they are so admirable particularly because they do not give others the feeling that they are the most smartest people because they know everything... hmmz. they just seem to be more worthy in their character i guess.

but sometimes materialistic pursuits or to judge by people appearance which are shallow and hollow acts in today's era seems to be so correct and a common thing to do... everything's simply superficial... doesn't the content worth more? then why are looks or beauty viewed as so terribly important? i simply don''t see the point and don't want to go with the flow. i still think that self affirmation is worth much more than others' recognition... just like the way i feel about people who judge by appearances... like they are not sincere at all with knowing you as a real friend based on who you truly are but rather your looks which will inevitably fade with time.

maybe that's why i never like to dress up, put on thick and unnatural stuff on my face and make myself uncomfortable and stiff. to me, feeling comfortable in my attire = feeling happy. if people really want to know you because of the unnatural you, isn't it torturous to keep up the pretence?! people who judge too easily and without understanding still seems a little shallow and narrow minded to me... hmmz. i guess this thinking of mine will remain with me. to me, i want to be the real comfortable me when i meet people. so that its either i don't make friends or i only make friends with those who like the way i am :)