"i'll like a drop of rainwater refracting light...
and a dash of illumination across the endless dark too."

Thursday, November 2, 2006

recently i discovered another paradox.

if time really can heal all wounds then why do some still feel hurt when they recall certain unpleasant things that happened to them in the past? incomplete healing or a scar? perhaps it may be true that as time goes by, we do not feel as intense the emotions we used to feel when the thing just happened to us. but the bottom line is that we probably can never forget those things that once managed to tug at our heartstrings no matter how long it takes.

life afterall, is just like a storybook with all our memories written down, regardless of their worth. that is why pages will either record some precious, treasured memories or be filled with melanchony ones. but without any particular one of them, the ending will be different, so will we.

its a sad thing sometimes when you realise that people only become stronger when they are made to go through the "downs" in life, sometimes unprepared and most of the time unwilling and it is almost always inevitable that, when they do, they are seldom found to laugh and play like a small kid anymore. their goals in life will change and so will their personality.

once, my friend told me that childishness is actually an act. maybe i would rather pretend to grow up and still be childish inside. ya. call me childish. afterall i still prefer to laugh and play like a small kid. wouldn't you too? :P