旅途

如果我 一颗心被你俘虏
就流浪 在你怀里的国度
我沿你手掌心的纹路启程我的追逐

如果你 眉宇都挂着孤独
就抚摸 让你冰山化成湖
我陪你 疯的任性糊涂笑的泪眼模糊

就一眼 爱变成一种天赋
心跳在你面前有了温度

我为你 开始领悟
忘掉明天和假如幸福就是满足

只一眼 爱变成一种天赋
不自觉 能牵你笑抱你哭

我为你有了旅途
不管离天涯几步 我都不在乎

三生三世十里桃花 ❤

only managed to catch this 3 years after its first release in 2017, but i can completely understand why it had been such a popular series.

the art director definitely did a charming job bringing the fantasy realm to life in this series.
the character development was done pretty well too, as was the casting, scripting, and even the editing of the series itself.

it will require a lot of will power to not fall for a character like ye hua in this story, and wishing to find someone like him to spend an eternity with.

his character practically covered all the idealistic traits of THE perfect soul mate.



there's of course his undying, transcending, self-sacrificing, intense and faithful love for susu/baiqian that will have most female audience rooting for, not to mention his inherent suaveness.

there's also his patience and willingness to make practically every single choice centering around her interest and wishes.

while at that, he also happened to be one of the most gifted celestial of his generation.
a brilliant strategist, possessing both brawn and brain, as well as a honorable character.

his capability to lead and manage tricky subjects and situations while making just and sound decisions for the greater good or for the right intention - without compromising his moral judgment - makes him extremely enticing.

it is indeed apt for a brilliant strategist like himself to only fall for someone who is genuinely kind and simple like susu, since few can parallel his intelligence and meticulousness in this series.

nevertheless, the ultimate soft spot for all female audience has to be his deeply affectionate and cheeky side which he only shows when he is around susu/baiqian. this sits extremely well with the fundamental notion of everyone wishing that they are unique and irreplaceable in this world, especially to the person they are in love with.



爱在天地中流转
 一颗心为谁奔忙
四海八荒 身在何方
 岁月该如何安放

掌心的泪握到滚烫
只愿为你三生痴狂
落花满天 又闻琴香
与你天地间徜徉

如果爱太荒凉 我陪你梦一场
赎回你所有泪光.
这一路有多远 这三世有多长
执手到地老天荒.

风凄凄雾茫茫 雨滚滚雪漫漫
一步步都陪你同往
牵着手 别惊慌 管明天会怎样
哪怕注定流浪 哪怕海角天涯

手牢牢不放 爱念念不忘
人生何须多辉煌
浮华的终成空 执著的都随风
情路何须多跌宕

要遇多少风浪 心不再摇晃
一起细数这过往
陪你等 风停了 雾散了 雨住了 雪化了

再见绝美月光 还有我在你身旁

torn.

nothing's right on time,
illusion never change.

dare i.

on my own
pretending he's beside me

when i lose my way i close my eyes
and he has found me

and i know it's only in my mind

all the lights are misty in the river
in the darkness, the trees are full of starlight

every day i'm learning
all my life

without me
his world will go on turning

and i know it's only in my mind

l'amour

J'aurais tant à lui dire si j'avais su parler.

anchor and waves.

a verb, not a fixed state of attainment.

trust, is key.

time

an ephemeral glimpse of eternity -

why the longing for something fleeting, now and then?

footprints in the sand, here now, gone later - what remains, save an etched, brief thought?

a heart's sojourn transpired, she heaves.

spark

darkness is the state of absence of light; it only manifests when light ceases to exist.
hope, a trick candle, never fails to re-light itself.

a calling ignites a spark,
a spark fuels passion,
passion changes things.

it only takes a spark to start a fire,
that can be relentless in its destruction, or cleansing, in its own way.

humanity can be shaped with just a single spark - for better or for worse - it all boils down to the person holding that spark.

one day, when you receive the spark,
decide how you can burn most brightly with it - for worthy causes - then pass it on and inspire others to do the same.

you only live once - burn bright.

balladino by sia

and baby you fall

a little piece of you

and it's a piece left in tact

a part that won't act

but it's overdue

so, you could just fail

you could lower your tail

and just lay down to die

but a sliver of hope

and a dream to elope

so sees my good eye

and i

i see your infinite and i

i see your definite

you push that shape-shifting smile

and as your defense falls

like your castle walls

it comes crashing down

it comes crashing down

but i heal you

you don't want love anymore

but you're drowning, oh

and i feel you

you shut love out evermore

peace surrounds you, oh

so, you could just fail

you could lower your tail

don't just lay down to die

"it has always been you."

once in a blue moon,
a random historical romance drama got one thinking about the idealistic notion of love

perhaps even if eternity were not an option,
and that one has to endure the crumbling sort of pain when it comes to parting,



it may still be worthwhile in the end.

perhaps.

dive

i'm off the deep end, watch as i dive in
i'll never meet the ground
crash through the surface, where they can't hurt us
we're far from the shallow now

mark . equal

lovely.

thought i found a way
but you never go away

i hope someday i'll make it out of here
even if it takes all night or a hundred years

need a place to hide, but i can't find one near
wanna feel alive, outside i can't fight my fear

isn't it lovely, all alone?
heart made of glass, my mind of stone

tear me to pieces, skin to bone
hello, welcome home

walking out of time
looking for a better place

something's on my mind
always in my head space

your eyes.

君心

万人之上，无人之巅。

"因为君心从来就是这世上最难揣摩，
最难把握的东西，
也是最不可信赖的东西。"

~如懿传

conclusion

the four-month hypothesis: an update.

little furred beast went off and play on its own.
a cute tuft of fur to say the least.
nonetheless, four months were all it needed -
for it to give up bugging me.

interesting.

now i know.

a picture paints a thousand words

painting a big picture is a daunting task.

from varying stroke styles to balancing the color tones - blending and harmonizing each layer on this seemingly never-ending canvas require masterly finesse - no less.

looking forward to the day where more fine artists join the ranks - so i may return to sketching my simpler, smaller art pieces... those closer to my heart... those where i can doodle without a care.

treading between both worlds in itself is already quite a challenge, what more to act as a portal and bridge?

times where i wish i never knew how much i missed out while i am painting... just so i feel a little better.

erised

"erised stra ehru oyt ube cafru oyt on wohsi"

times where i wonder,
what exactly would i see?

would i be surprised?

if i were, does it mean that i do not know my own heart?

its perhaps not too difficult to know what we like,
but 'love' and 'desire' are strong, dangerous words.

the kingdom of night and glass

the castle sat atop the mountains, surrounded by perpetual darkness, engulfed by an air of magic and mystery.

she could feel her own heartbeat quicken.

should she?

atomic number 82

 a heavy metal denser than most common materials, yet also soft and malleable.

much like the same word in verb form.

ashore

a relatively mad 48 hours of sorts.

first instance of anger, perhaps more disappointment? 

tough to be you... i guess.

how many masks do you need to adorn?

just the tip of an iceberg from my end,

and oftentimes i've caught myself looking ashore.

an idealist like yourself - what keeps you going?

i mean, besides coffee, of course.

a little.

there goes my heart beating,
cos you are the reason.

swim every ocean just to be with you,
fix what's broken, make sure the light defeated the dark.

just a little closer now, come a little closer now
glance, once more.

the furry beast just grew a tiny bit.

just
a
little
bit.

day 66.
56 days to go.

a slight beam?

so.

seemed like you really beamed today.
hope this snapshot will stay with you for a while, and remain warm for some time.

another two months or so should do the trick i guess,
am already feeling it slipping away.

the beast, finally tamed a little -
a rather adorable creature still, nonetheless.

think i may also finally have an inkling of my soft spot.
its "the" sense of being misunderstood by the world.

when perhaps, deep down, one is not
every bit as evil or mean as perceived.

perhaps, beneath that strong front,
one does possess a gentle side that can do with some tender care.

no matter,
just another two months.

blink of an eye,
i'm sure.